Why does this happen? I get an incredible breakthrough, only to be followed by a slump. I just feel drained and exhausted.
I don’t look for the big dramatic moments. I don’t expect them, and I don’t seek them out. I just do the assigned work, quite content to make progress in small increments. Past experience has taught me that important goals are often achieved taking one small step at a time; and if you hang in there, you’ll get there. That is not to say that each one of those steps didn’t represent a LOT of work. Rather, it is to say that even though progress was only achieved one small increment at a time, each one of those small steps eventually led to the desired goal. That makes sense to me, and I’m just fine with that approach because it has produced great results for me. In fact, I’m a bit leery of the dramatic breakthrough type of progress.
Unbidden and unsought after, these dramatic experiences have come, leaving me wiped out and exhausted. In my case, exhaustion leads to feeling discouraged, even though I have nothing to be discouraged about. This doesn’t make any sense at all, and it’s so frustrating!
I’ve come to the conclusion that this course, at least in my case, takes a lot of mental energy. It’s a different type of mental energy than that which is used to study a difficult subject.
Who knows? Maybe the caterpillar needs to take a lot of naps while he is in the process of becoming a butterfly.